Excuse me while I through myself a little pity party:-( I am feeling so overwhelmed and sad right now. I was told by the cardiologist that I have SVT (supraventricular tachycardia) this week and started on medication for that to keep my heart from racing like crazy. I have passed out a few times, and have generally been feeling pretty crummy.
And then today I got the diagnosis of cholestasis. Essentially what this means is that my liver is producing bile that is overflowing into my blood stream. This isn't really a bad thing for me, except that it causes severe itching and can cause some difficulty absorbing vitamins. But for the baby it can be severe. The bile can build up in the baby and cause liver damage, but there is also a high risk of fetal death! So I will be going in twice a week (AT LEAST) for more monitoring, and keeping close tabs on the baby. But I am so anxious. Since my sister's baby died when she was 38wks pregnant, and they don't know why this is hitting really close to home for me. When the nurse was giving me the info this morning, she said "Did the doctor talk about delivering you early?" And my response was "No but I have delivered my other two at 35wks." Her response was it will be earlier than that....So here we are in limbo again, waiting for a crisis and I really just wanted things to go smoothly!!!
And of course my husband is stressing out about the financial part, which I understand is important too but I just wish that some comforting and supporting could be done first:-( Just feeling sad and down in the dumps:-(